XoJohnnielynn

 Good morning or evening I don't know when you logged on. My name is Johnnielynn and I am extremely anxious.  I have struggled with anxiety for as long as I can remember.  Over my 34 years of life I've had to learn to cope and how to function not just with it but inspire of it.  Where my anxiety began I don't know if my anxiety is a result of abandonment trauma or if it's a chemical imbalance.  I do know that while I don't remember experienceing it until I was 7 my mom said I was much younger.  When I was 3 my parents got a divorce. during that time and until my youngest sister was 3 we had a family councilor that was concerned with my self esteem, or lac of.  My mom has told me that she was told to praise everything I did. "Johnnielynn you're sitting so nicely" "look how good you're..."  I only remember being 7.  I remember being in second grade, and every day I was crying because my tummy hurt. As soon as I was out of school I was happy

 Hello everyone, Guess who's back.  I am Johnnielynn, I write a lifestyle blog where I write about my love of beauty products, nannying, pets, and anxiety.  I've been off of blogging for a while and I've missed it so much. Blogging has always been helpful to my mental health. I've also got a social circle of non makeup obsessed friends so while they let me talk about all of the different beauty products that I am loving it's not real exciting to them.  Why did I leave? Ok so as you can guess from the title this isn't my first blog. I first started my blog in 2015 and ran it well for 5 years. I never went "viral" and really it just made me happy. Unfortunately with 2020 came uncertainty and inconsistency so my anxiety crept into my blog. So I gave it up.  I felt like I wasn't putting anything into it, which made me feel guilty so I let it go.  But I've gotten my mental health back under control and am thrilled to start this journey... again Why